Seems like Christmas was years ago...and its only been a month! I hate that it goes by so fast and the procrastinator that I am I just now uploaded my pictures! I didn't take as many as usual but I will bore you with some of the family.

Grandma bought them elve hats to wear on Christmas morning..hehehe

These two handsome men are my brothers!

Here are the nieces and nephews and I am not sure where my camera was when we went to visit the other niece and nephew :(

Ok enough of Christmas! Here is a pictures I snapped last night with Cooper and Nate! Nate is really getting used to this..it makes me smile!

Day Two: open your eyes!

Its funny to watch Nate and I take care of Cooper, commical actually....we are great at it dont get me wrong but its like two monkeys getting thrown in the tigers ring! I am used to babies, worked at a daycare, always wanted to be around babies and I think its just a women's instinct. Nate on the other hand has no idea really what is going on..does any guy? I still am not sure what I am doing wrong at night time with Cooper, but every 2 or 3 hours on the dot he is waking up and fussing a little...so I swaddle him, give him his passy or maybe an ounce of milk and he is back to sleep. When he is crying his eyes are still closed too.....any suggestions? Well I will be asking his mother tonight just in case I am doing something wrong! Back to Nate. He is always saying "lay him with me" when Cooper rises at 5:30 in the morning and this morning I said, why didn't you offer to watch him when he was up all the other times.....Oh he says, I had no idea he was crying! Pathetic!!! He also wants to burb Cooper after half an ounce of milk, which Cooper screams because he hadn't had enough yet.....but Nate wants to learn on his own and not be corrected so I don't say anything until he finally asks" What am I doing wrong"! Its a great experience for him I tell....well for both of us!
On a lighter note...I heard this song on the radio yesterday, and laughed laughed laughed! NO matter what your political views are this song makes you smile...maybe even laugh!
(I can't upload the video but it is worth clicking here .....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=go_SZ4oifAU

Day One: So far so good

Last night was our first night keeping baby Cooper! (His mom and older siblings are visiting their dad and moving back furniture) What fun it is to have a 5 month old around the house. He is so funny....giggling out loud, following every move we make and trying to grab and talk at everything! We have really enjoyed him for our first night. He went to sleep fine, he was a little uneasy a couple times during the night, but I am sure that is because he was in an odd place...and to take care of this problem all you have to do is replace his passy and swaddle him back tight! Easy Cheesy! This age is priceless and I couldn't ever imagine how much I would love a nephew!

Talking all baby talks brings up a subject that I never blogged about. Most of the readers read about my miscarriage I had back in July. It was horrible. The worst pain I have ever been through and pain that sticks with you forever. For those of you who have never experienced a miscarraige, be grateful because I honestly thing it is pain that never leaves. For those that have I feel your pain. Nate and I were egger to try again, maybe too soon! We were pregnant again by September only to learn that I miscarried again in October. You think you had heard the worse news ever the first time the doctor talked to us about miscarring, wait till you hear it twice. I won't elebrate because I still can't talk about it. Actually nobody knew we were pregnant the second time, not even family. So I was in a very low place after I learned we had miscarried again. I had surgery in October. My doctor here in Cape, MO thought it would be best to do all the testing after 2 miscarriages. They usually don't test until after three, but I will feel better after test are ran and if there is a problem it needs to be fixed.

So here we are now, testing! Testing everything under the sun...procedure after procedure and I swear I have lost half my blood count after all the blood that has been taken. So far nothing has been found that is causing it but there are still more test to run. We hope to also take a trip to St.Louis within the next month to test up there.

When I started this blog entry it was intended to tell my story at all, I don't want pity, I just thought maybe you should know. At first it was hard to be happy for others that were glowing and pregnant, it was hard to pass someone with that baby bump or even be around others with new babies. Its hard to think of people giving up their kids, its hard to imagine people hurting their kids, heck its even hard for me to understand parents beign mad at their kids....these things make me so mad that I could scream. As bad as this sounds, you just want something so bad, something you have tried for and it seems everyone else has it. But I am better now, I can be happy for others...the pain is still there but I know in my heart we will be parents. I really am happy for others and I am so happy that they are bringing a baby in the world, I just want that too. I want the morning sickness ( I would not gripe), I want to be waken up every hour to feed, I want to get fat and maybe not even loose the baby weight afterwards( I wouldn't care), I want the fits and screaming and being late for work because the kid(s) wouldn't listen! I can't wait till that happens.

I guess having a little one around to watch and take care of these next couple of days just makes me realize how I can't wait till all these test are done so we can have a baby of our own! But Nate and I know God is looking out for us, he has gotten us through this so far and we know he will bring us great things! We are being patient, he will bless us and we know he wants us to be parents...my gosh we would be great! So go home and kiss your kids because sometimes its not as easy as just getting "knocked up"! Some people try a lot harder and have battles to beat before they are blessed. So never take it for granted. I will go home tonight and Cooper will be there to entertain us and give us join and I know God has a plan and now that my story is out I will be sure to keep everyone up on how my testing is going!

P.S. If anyone out there has similar stories or has had trouble I would love to hear your story. Maybe we just tried to soon? Maybe my body needed time to rest from the first one (which I know is common to miscarry once). Maybe its something small, any insight on any of this will sure help!

You know.....

1.You know it was a good weekend when the smell of anything but water makes your stomach do turns on Sunday.....

2. You know it was a great weekend when I can't even hardly sit down b/c my butt and legs hurt so bad from dancing the night away......(this also means I am way outta shape)

3. You know it was a good weekend when the greasiest cheeseburger is the only thing that will make your head stop hurting

4. You know it was a great weekend when all day Sunday you wore the same p.j.s and never got out of them.... Not even when you went to the store, people I guess just understood I had a great night.

5. You know it was a great weekend when your clothes from Saturday night are still on your bedroom floor and the smell of them makes you wish you would never drink again.

6. You know it was a good weekend when you are excited about babysitting this weekend so you don't have to go out!!!

We did have a great weekend! A couple of our friends were married and we danced and drank the night away! We even hit up the after bars b/c stopping at 11:30 just wasn't enough drinking!!! This week/weekend we get to keep Cooper, my nephew, ( 5 months now). We will have him for 5 days! He is so much fun at this age and we can't wait to have a nice relaxing weekend with him! After this weekend we need it.....

Randomness...is this a word?

My blogging has been slim, I am guessing my life has been boring lately. Here are a few randoms:

1. My house is still not clean but it doesn't show any signs of Christmas still lurking around. I am living by the moto " Enjoy life, clean later"!

2. My husband has butchered Hogs the last two weekends ( yes we raised pigs this year to see what it was like) and this weekend he is at it again.

3. With the husband busy this leaves girl time for me. My mom and all my aunts will get together tonight to gossip over coffee. We are so tight nit that we still do this a lot!

4. My budget has started. I will spend no more money on anything I don't need until Spring rolls around!!! ( I am trying people)

5. We have a wedding on Saturday and I just love weddings!!! Great food, drinks and good friends! I haven't hung out with my BFF in so long we need this!

6. I am missing my niece and nephews like crazy!!! A week without seeing them is so few, I will be visiting probally tomorrow!

7. Next weekend Nate and I will keep my nephew Cooper (5 months) all weekend. We enjoy our practice and spending time with him, he is a great age!

8. I want to take a trip to Louisiana very soon to visit my dad and brothers. I am thinking a March trip will be perfect! (thats a soon as I can)

9. The Colts Football season is over (as well as the husband's team The Dolphins), so Sunday football is a thing of the past till next year!!! I haven't been able to talk about the Colts losing until now b/c I was so upset.

10. This full week of work is killing me, I am used to time off! But its Friday and looking forward to the weekend

11. I need my car serviced so bad, it is very neglected on the oil changes lately!

12. Last but not least.....All the new shows have started back up and tonight the finally of "Lipstick Jungle" tune in if u can, I will recording it!

Have a great weekend!

Quick update

Remeber my blog on Vicks, well I tried it and I found great results!!!! It wasn't a miracle work or anything but I for sure felt better in the morning. Now there are a couple tricks. I rubbed the vicks on my feet and put socks over the vicks. I am a little OCD so I had to take my mind off the nasty vicks on my feet or I couldnt' sleep, but once I was asleep I was fine. My other trick was I didn't stop with my feet, I was determined to feel great in the morning so I put some on my chest also. So, I can't really proof the vicks worked from just putting in on my feet but I can tell you if your head feels like a balloon and your nose a leaky water hose, resort back to our mom's old tricks and try the Vick's action. (this should be there new slogan)

P.S. I have also heard way too many good things about The NetiPot product, so next time I am trying it also

Welcome 2009

It was so hard to head to work this morning knowing all my holiday time is over! But, I have a great feeling about 2009 and can't wait to get going. I am back in the neck of things and starting this Monday off with a smile because that is how I want to approach 2009. I am always making resolutions and never keeping them...ever, so I am trying to something different I have seen on a couple of other blogs. If I don't call them resolutions maybe I will do them more? Its a thought?

Goals:

* to eat better (not diet) I am talking about myself cooking better meals, making better decisions for my health and my husbands. I am not dieting..no, no, no! I am just going to make better choices! Try to cook more..all these food things in catogeory! I mean I could eat McD's at every meal...

*To wake up every morning with time to spare! I am always hitting my alarm clock to sleep till the last minute then that puts me in a rush! I am spilling coffee,throwing make-up, brushes and hairspray sometimes aren't even used! I want time to sip my coffee and maybe even through in a load of laundrey.

*Get a cleaning routine and keep it! I always say a little cleaning every night but I end up rushing around and doing it all in one night and wearing myself down!

*READ more...I have always loved to read but lately I am flipping channels at night instead of picking up that book

*take my vitamins! I need them...I am low on iron, but never remember!

*Take care of my car better, I know it see's neglected all the time. I need to keep it cleaner!

*Try to just smile more and not sweat the small stuff, I am a worry wort and need to just relax and enjoy life right now b/c mine is great!

These are just a couple goals I have set. Nothing too hard about these at all. ( we will see)I just have to change a couple of my routines to make them work!

I will let you know how it all works out....I will try to update on my goals every friday!

Am I the only one who doesn't have their house in complete order after Christmas?? Seriously all my decor should be down by today, but maybe I am just a little slow?