First Month with Baby D

For those of you without baby and still fighting the fight to have one...you are all still in my prayers and thoughts. I know how diffucult hearing great news can be. Believe me after miscarrying a couple times last year I couldn't be happy for anyone who had a baby or was expecting. I know its hard to hear such wonderful things from someone else when you want that exact thing. This is just proof that miracles happen. You one day will have a young one also..and God will give you this same miracle one day also. I still feel for you and although it will be hard to listen to my journey, just know this is proof of a miracle. I will still constanly keep up with those who struggle everyday and I still pray and hope for you just as you did for me. I still feel for you





The first month I was clueless..clueless I tell you. During the first month we had our appointment with Dr. Specialist. He also had no idea I was pregnant because at this time I was only 2 weeks. We left the doctors office with a great feeling and ready to try for a baby the NEXT Month. Funny how things happen.

We had our trip to Vegas planned and couldn't be more excited for our vacation and baby trying soon. ( you see we really where being safe (or so we thought) and weren't really "trying" until after Vegas). So we carried on with life as usual. Going out with friends, celebrating birthdays and such. I thought by week 3-4 that I was feeling very very tired...but I thought it was all in my head. I kept telling Nate that I was tired, but never thought it was pregnancy talking to me. After a couple let downs earlier the year before, you tend to block things out of your head. So I blocked it completely out and never thought about taking a test.

I was at 5 1/2 weeks when I took the first test. It was on a Sunday and I was feeling tired and of course aunt flow hadn't come. This was the most stressful day ever. I knew on this particular Sunday that I would be taking the test but I didn't' want to. I wanted to continue on and not worry about it. I know this sounds crazy because we wanted a baby so bad but I couldn't' take another let down so I just blocked it all out. Nate made me take a test that night....literally made me do it...I wasn't going to do it on my own at all

To our surprise the test was positive. No questions ask I was pregnant. Now the worry starts and never stops. I immediately called the doctor on Monday and had blood work done that day. The doctors called me back on Wednesday and said blood work looked great and that I could come in and they would try to hear a heartbeat that day since I was almost 6 weeks.

Vegas was cancelled. I couldn't enjoy myself at all on vacation when all I could think about was Baby D. I would worry the whole time and it only seemed right to cancel our trip and think about the greater things. (We told a little lie to everyone saying Hubby was way to busy to go at this time..hehe)

The heartbeat was heard....tears streamed down my face....I was still very nervous but now a little excited! It had just started beating but it was something I had never heard and it was BEAUTIFUL!!!!

Part 2 tomorrow.