Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Throwing yourself at a bus

Having a sick baby is the WORST feeling in the world. I compare it to throwing yourself at a bus....and losing!!
In the last 3 weeks Tucker has battled ear aches, a slight chance of pneumonia and RSV(this is the latest this week). The coughing, the snotty nose, the screaming, the not eating, the breathing treatments, the meds, the fever....with all of this you would rather through yourself at a bus..seriously. There is nothing worse than a sick baby. I would be sick a hundred times if it meant he would be well.
So how does mom and dad react: A little fighting, a little screaming, and in my case a whole lot of crying. I never went through post pardon after Tucker was born but I think I am battling it now. Every time he cries...I cry. Every time he screams..I want to scream and this is all because I can't do anything to take the pain way. I want to drink bottles and bottles of wine but limit myself because I realize that I would pass out and not hear baby cry and this would be child neglect.
So the decision was made to pull him outta daycare yesterday. He will be staying with grandparents until summer arrives or until we know he is way way outta this sickness stage. I have beat myself up over this daycare thing....but what are working moms supposed to do?? I love my job! I get adult time and face it...my job is easy peesy. I love going to work although I miss Tucker deeply, but I enjoy getting outta the house. I like my own money, and I am just not a stay in the house kinda person. I have to get out and accomplish something. (not that stay at home moms dont b/c for 9 weeks with Tucker at home I was BEAT everyday) But we are pulling him outta daycare. Do I blame daycare for sickness....NO. Tucker just is a sicker baby. But he has gotta it made now....staying with grandmas all day long. Wow, I will have on spoiled child very very soon

So anyways..while I sit here and cry and sip my wine and get ready to yell at nate when he walks in for no reason at all...say a Prayer Tucker gets well soon :)


Amy said...

First of all, POOR TUCKER! I know how hard it is when your baby is sick, it SUCKS!

Brady was so fussy last week, i was right there with you. He hasnt been as sick as tucker but we deal with reflux everyday and when it it as its worst, i just cry too.

it made me think i was tetering on ppd too, it so hard when they don't feel good and they are constantly crying. You feel helpless and like it never will end, but it will! Hang in there, hugs from me and brady!!!

Alicia said...

Sorry to hear poor Tucker is not feeling any better. I can't imagine how stressful this is for you. Hang in there and I will say a prayer for your sweet baby.

My Husband's Watching TV... said...

I'm sorry girl! I hope little T gets to feeling better soon. Just think, "this too shall pass." What a lucky boy to get to spend so much time with his grandmas! Everything will get better!

Julie Underwood said...

Kara - I don't blame you at all for pulling him out of daycare. There are so many sick kids around little Tucker and his immune system can't handle all the germs. I've been meaning to tell you that Patty (where Trey goes) does have 1 opening if you are at all interested. She only has 5 kids so there aren't so many snotty nosed kids around. It is awesome that the grandparents are able to keep Tucker during the day, but if it gets too much for them, let me know.

My Husband's Watching TV... said...

Check out my blog on Saturday, I'm leaving you something to make you feel better!