6 weeks-8 weeks

No we weren't really "trying" to have a baby. But we weren't not trying. We actually had just started talking about adding to our family and trying for another baby in May. So we knew we wanted another one soon, we just wanted one more month so the baby wouldn't be born on Christmas. Ha, its so funny what you want and what you get isn't it??

So we were all excited to try for baby #2 in May. Then I remember I hadn't had a cycle in some time. Hmmm?? I NEVER in a million years thought that I was pregnant though. I mean we weren't really trying and I was NOT that lucky of a girl. I mean I had sooo much trouble trying to get Tucker here, that never could I be so lucky.

Well I was lucky. I was blessed. I took a test and there it was....a big positive. This was at 5 weeks, I thought, but really I was already 6 weeks. I think at first we were shocked and scared. Yes I know thats what it was. We were NOT excited at first. This sounds so odd, but true. I wanted this baby, but just knew I would miscarry like I had done 2 times before Tucker. I had it in the back of my head that I couldn't get excited yet because I didn't want to be let down later.

So I prayed. and prayed and prayed. And I lived each day quiet thinking of what, how when. And then I prayed some more. Then I got sick. A couple mornings after I took the test I was on my way to work, drinking my coffee like I did everyday, and it hit me. I was SICK. Sick Sick Sick. I was sick that evening. I was sick if I wasn't eating ever 3 hours. I WAS sick I tell you. Everything had an odor and made me sick.
I was sooooooo excited about being sick though. I knew this was a good sign. I knew being sick meant LOTS of hormones and healthy baby. I embraced sickness. I prayed to be sick. I tried to enjoy being sick.

Being sick was hard though...with a toddler at home. And I had to give up coffee, sweet tea and most other things that I loved because  I was so sick. But I didn't care. I loved being sick

Then at 8 weeks...we went to ultrasound and saw that little flutter of a heartbeat!!! Tears rolled down my cheeks, and down Nathan's cheeks. How did we get so blessed??

(more tomorrow)